Isolation and ignorance.

So it starts from my first year ,and now i am in( fourth year ).A Delhi boy was my roommate and a n arcissicist.I tried to do various things but he criticised me in everthing such speaking English ,talking to girls ,learning sny new skill.Tu ye sikh rha h ,kiu ?Are ja bottle me paani bharke le aa.Whenever i tried to tlk in English he said dekh 'Bihari' English bol rha h .He showed me inferior in front of his gf as well.Once I slept on his bed bevause someone else was on mine bed,he was so agitated by knowing this .Whereas when other boys of the hostel slept he said nothing.So that created a fear in my mind and I still struggle to talk to any girl,no female friends .He ruined my iit life 🥲🥲